Sunday, August 07, 2005
well... i havent been writing anything in my blog for a long time ade... no mood to write la.. or wad so ever... hmm... so lets tok abt hari koko.... it was nice la... da whole open hall was crowded wid ppl... n lots of stalls selling mostly food.. not forgetting some game stalls n body art stall.. yea... my club.. music club sold mochi, ice blended mocha, n ice kacang.. ours was da 1st stall to finish selling everything... nice food ma... n good ppl relationship...
well.. there were sum other interesting stuff... like da fried ice cream stall... they had this huge box wid fried ice cream ads all over n a guy wearing dat box walkin all over da open hall blowing a whistle to get attention... it was quite fun to look at... then there was the canning demonstration by the prison officers... man it was wicked... da guy was so huge.. n da cane was at least one inch thick man... they had this v fake dummy wid a v fake bleeding butt wid da hands n waist tied firmly to a pole... n da officer canned it 10 times... i tell u everytime he canned da dummy... sum ppl screamed... when da cane landed on da dummy... a loud crack could be heard... i was quite a amazed da dummy's butt didnt burst after da 10 canes... i really cant imagine da cane landing on real human's butt... man its gonna hurt real bad..
anyway.. was dragged to da photography club stall by sum lower 6 frenz... kena cheated 5 bucks there... i havent even say yes they ade finish cookin da food n askin 5 bucks frm me..... SIAL... bt nvm la.. all my frenz... support a bit lo.. overall.. it was nice la.. cuz its da 1st time i was free throughout.. no nid to care abt anything.. no nid to care abt anyone... quite happy la...
then after that... had da music club party rehearsal.. dat idiot dicipline teacher chased us out of the classroom n forbade us to use da classroom.... dun u think its absolutely absurd?! students cant even use classrooms in their own school... was v fed up ade... went to astaka to practice.. n every1 needed me for their performances.. i was like.. v bz ade.. then when i'm practicing this.. the others will be like waiting for me v impatiently like as if it was my fault.. then lastly i couldnt control myself n screamed at jasmine.. made her cry.. sorry again yar jas.. really really didnt mean it.. juz too stressed up n tired of everything.. skipped chinese tuition n practiced till 2.30.. yeah.. then went home n went to cs again..bought a 256 memory card for my Motorola E398 n bought a new bodyglove sling bag... v tired la dat day..
then came sunday... our music club's 4th budday party... i was da emcee.. involved in da stomp performance.. choir.. played guit for 2 group singin performance.. acapella.. n drama... we invited singers frm ma3 yao2 to perform... an association la.. all local singers.. they were ok.. then after i performed.. the guy frm ma3 yao2.. da guitarist came n talked to me...asked me abt my guitar.. my Yamaha APX-3.. then commented on my performance.. said overall i played quite well... of cuz la.. i was playin C Major my dear fren.. haha... if i was playin in F sharp.. see if he will still say i played gd.. haha... if F sharp i sure die.. all those chords.. man.. difficult.. then he said its onli the 2nd time he seen a gal playing guitar on stage.. well.. me myself oso can really figure out y so few gals play guitar.. i mean.. its cool wad.. n so much more easier than piano.. although i learn piano oso... mebbe they cant bear the pain of da guitar strings cutting into their flesh... well i myself almost gave up at 1st oso.. left hand fingers swelling... bruised... right hand fingers bleeding.. haha.. yea...its quite scary isnt it... but well i pulled through.. n luckily i did... he asked me if i was interested to continue playin n work in da music line... i was like... huh? i nv really thought of that.. cuz i had always categorized music as a hobby.. not work... i wud love to play music.. but i need to think abt my future... unless i was really gd otherwise music wont be geeting me anywhere... but anyway.. wad matters is my studies now... he gave me his name card.. well i guess i wont hav problems finding a job after spm if i wanted to work while waiting for my results.. haha.. dat guy seemed v interested to ask me to join his company n was quite disapponted when he found out i was still studying... haha..
anyway.. we invited abel's band Envy too... they rawked... real nice... of cuz la.. wouldnt hav wasted my money right... wont elaborate too much on money.. ahah.. anyway.. really loved their performance..
the drama was v funny.. but a bit too long.. 45 minutes ler.. no kidding... then lastly... everything ended... it was quite ok la.. although there were sum hiccups through out..
this week really gotta start studying ade... trials comin in a month... muz try n find da motivation.... i keep getting distracted.... hav been skipping classes... every friday... 3 weeks ade... whole day nv go into class.... dunno y... juz dun feel like studying on friday.... haihh... i muz stop this la... trying to.. i know its not good n not right.... but i juz cant help it... i dun learn anything in class oso. i dun even know wads da point of goin to sch.. the teachers dont seem to giv a damn abt my class... all their hopes r on da 1st class... hoo wud even care a bit abt da laz science class in ssi.. da class wid da most diciplinary problems.. the class dat never showed up for classes on time.. the class that seldom had all da students in da class at da same time.. da class that almost evrery student r bound to fail at least 1 subject.. hoo wud care abt us? yea.. the principal.. all he cares is da sch's name... premier sch... my shit la... its juz a name.. a fake name... the teachers are all bias.... the 1st class students will never do anything wrong.. n even if they did... nthn will ever happen to them.. there will always be teachers there to stand up for them... th speak up for them... unlike us.... teachers will try their very best to put the blame on us... well.. sum1 has to take the blame right? of cuz it will be us.. the class with no hope... thats da cruel reality... i dun wish to admit it but its true.... if only the teachers treated us da same way as how they treated other students... well i cant blame it all on them... da attitude problem of some ppl in my class is getting more n more outta hand... i dun wish to say their names here.. but they know it themselves... dats y i'd rather not go to classes than to see their disgusting faces... suckers with no brains... they know how to pick on ppl.. they know how to critisize ppl.. yeahh thay know.. they r so good at it.. but their studies? u wouldnt want to know.. i really wonder how they got into SSI in da 1st place.. n i really wonder y hasnt the sch expell them... they send them for useless councillings hoping they wud change... yea right... they dunno hoo r they dealing with... do they really think those bastards care abt the stupid councilling sessions? wake up my dear teachers.... they'l juz laf at u for ur naiveness.. they'll juz mock at u like an idiot... wake up my teachers... its time to WAKE UP...
enuf of this shit...wel... i started contacting him again... after so many months of ignoring each other.. i decided to put a stop to it... dun wan this to go on like this.. i hope i'm doin the right thing.. my frenz are already questioning me y am i doin this... i dun care if he made me sad.. i dun care if he once made my life miserable.. n dun ask me y dun i hate him.. i never did.. not once..i've decided... n i'm not gonna regret wad i'm doin.. i juz dun wan da 2 of us to keep ignoring each other.. well i cant help thinkin abt the promise we made to each other sum time ago.. we promised each other that even if we break up 1 day.. we muz remain as best friends.. although its not da way it is now.. n u might think i'm naive.. but i really hope we can still remain as friends.. well.. 1 more friend is better than 1 more enemy right? i'm sure u'll agree with me on this... so my frenz if u see this.. pls dun interrogate me as if i did sumthing wrong ok? i know how to handle my personal things myself.. n thanks to those hoo stood by me through these saddest moments of my life... i've walk out of da past.. i'm fine now... really..
anyway... its ade 3am.. gotta get sum sleep now... typed alot ade.. so yar.... signing out.. chao!
well.. there were sum other interesting stuff... like da fried ice cream stall... they had this huge box wid fried ice cream ads all over n a guy wearing dat box walkin all over da open hall blowing a whistle to get attention... it was quite fun to look at... then there was the canning demonstration by the prison officers... man it was wicked... da guy was so huge.. n da cane was at least one inch thick man... they had this v fake dummy wid a v fake bleeding butt wid da hands n waist tied firmly to a pole... n da officer canned it 10 times... i tell u everytime he canned da dummy... sum ppl screamed... when da cane landed on da dummy... a loud crack could be heard... i was quite a amazed da dummy's butt didnt burst after da 10 canes... i really cant imagine da cane landing on real human's butt... man its gonna hurt real bad..
anyway.. was dragged to da photography club stall by sum lower 6 frenz... kena cheated 5 bucks there... i havent even say yes they ade finish cookin da food n askin 5 bucks frm me..... SIAL... bt nvm la.. all my frenz... support a bit lo.. overall.. it was nice la.. cuz its da 1st time i was free throughout.. no nid to care abt anything.. no nid to care abt anyone... quite happy la...
then after that... had da music club party rehearsal.. dat idiot dicipline teacher chased us out of the classroom n forbade us to use da classroom.... dun u think its absolutely absurd?! students cant even use classrooms in their own school... was v fed up ade... went to astaka to practice.. n every1 needed me for their performances.. i was like.. v bz ade.. then when i'm practicing this.. the others will be like waiting for me v impatiently like as if it was my fault.. then lastly i couldnt control myself n screamed at jasmine.. made her cry.. sorry again yar jas.. really really didnt mean it.. juz too stressed up n tired of everything.. skipped chinese tuition n practiced till 2.30.. yeah.. then went home n went to cs again..bought a 256 memory card for my Motorola E398 n bought a new bodyglove sling bag... v tired la dat day..
then came sunday... our music club's 4th budday party... i was da emcee.. involved in da stomp performance.. choir.. played guit for 2 group singin performance.. acapella.. n drama... we invited singers frm ma3 yao2 to perform... an association la.. all local singers.. they were ok.. then after i performed.. the guy frm ma3 yao2.. da guitarist came n talked to me...asked me abt my guitar.. my Yamaha APX-3.. then commented on my performance.. said overall i played quite well... of cuz la.. i was playin C Major my dear fren.. haha... if i was playin in F sharp.. see if he will still say i played gd.. haha... if F sharp i sure die.. all those chords.. man.. difficult.. then he said its onli the 2nd time he seen a gal playing guitar on stage.. well.. me myself oso can really figure out y so few gals play guitar.. i mean.. its cool wad.. n so much more easier than piano.. although i learn piano oso... mebbe they cant bear the pain of da guitar strings cutting into their flesh... well i myself almost gave up at 1st oso.. left hand fingers swelling... bruised... right hand fingers bleeding.. haha.. yea...its quite scary isnt it... but well i pulled through.. n luckily i did... he asked me if i was interested to continue playin n work in da music line... i was like... huh? i nv really thought of that.. cuz i had always categorized music as a hobby.. not work... i wud love to play music.. but i need to think abt my future... unless i was really gd otherwise music wont be geeting me anywhere... but anyway.. wad matters is my studies now... he gave me his name card.. well i guess i wont hav problems finding a job after spm if i wanted to work while waiting for my results.. haha.. dat guy seemed v interested to ask me to join his company n was quite disapponted when he found out i was still studying... haha..
anyway.. we invited abel's band Envy too... they rawked... real nice... of cuz la.. wouldnt hav wasted my money right... wont elaborate too much on money.. ahah.. anyway.. really loved their performance..
the drama was v funny.. but a bit too long.. 45 minutes ler.. no kidding... then lastly... everything ended... it was quite ok la.. although there were sum hiccups through out..
this week really gotta start studying ade... trials comin in a month... muz try n find da motivation.... i keep getting distracted.... hav been skipping classes... every friday... 3 weeks ade... whole day nv go into class.... dunno y... juz dun feel like studying on friday.... haihh... i muz stop this la... trying to.. i know its not good n not right.... but i juz cant help it... i dun learn anything in class oso. i dun even know wads da point of goin to sch.. the teachers dont seem to giv a damn abt my class... all their hopes r on da 1st class... hoo wud even care a bit abt da laz science class in ssi.. da class wid da most diciplinary problems.. the class dat never showed up for classes on time.. the class that seldom had all da students in da class at da same time.. da class that almost evrery student r bound to fail at least 1 subject.. hoo wud care abt us? yea.. the principal.. all he cares is da sch's name... premier sch... my shit la... its juz a name.. a fake name... the teachers are all bias.... the 1st class students will never do anything wrong.. n even if they did... nthn will ever happen to them.. there will always be teachers there to stand up for them... th speak up for them... unlike us.... teachers will try their very best to put the blame on us... well.. sum1 has to take the blame right? of cuz it will be us.. the class with no hope... thats da cruel reality... i dun wish to admit it but its true.... if only the teachers treated us da same way as how they treated other students... well i cant blame it all on them... da attitude problem of some ppl in my class is getting more n more outta hand... i dun wish to say their names here.. but they know it themselves... dats y i'd rather not go to classes than to see their disgusting faces... suckers with no brains... they know how to pick on ppl.. they know how to critisize ppl.. yeahh thay know.. they r so good at it.. but their studies? u wouldnt want to know.. i really wonder how they got into SSI in da 1st place.. n i really wonder y hasnt the sch expell them... they send them for useless councillings hoping they wud change... yea right... they dunno hoo r they dealing with... do they really think those bastards care abt the stupid councilling sessions? wake up my dear teachers.... they'l juz laf at u for ur naiveness.. they'll juz mock at u like an idiot... wake up my teachers... its time to WAKE UP...
enuf of this shit...wel... i started contacting him again... after so many months of ignoring each other.. i decided to put a stop to it... dun wan this to go on like this.. i hope i'm doin the right thing.. my frenz are already questioning me y am i doin this... i dun care if he made me sad.. i dun care if he once made my life miserable.. n dun ask me y dun i hate him.. i never did.. not once..i've decided... n i'm not gonna regret wad i'm doin.. i juz dun wan da 2 of us to keep ignoring each other.. well i cant help thinkin abt the promise we made to each other sum time ago.. we promised each other that even if we break up 1 day.. we muz remain as best friends.. although its not da way it is now.. n u might think i'm naive.. but i really hope we can still remain as friends.. well.. 1 more friend is better than 1 more enemy right? i'm sure u'll agree with me on this... so my frenz if u see this.. pls dun interrogate me as if i did sumthing wrong ok? i know how to handle my personal things myself.. n thanks to those hoo stood by me through these saddest moments of my life... i've walk out of da past.. i'm fine now... really..
anyway... its ade 3am.. gotta get sum sleep now... typed alot ade.. so yar.... signing out.. chao!
i look upon the moon and stars at
3:10 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon