Wednesday, September 07, 2005

well lets see.. recived sum suprising smses not too long ago.. well.. seriously.. i dun really know who should i trust frm now on.. should i believe him? or should i believe my close friend.. i really dont know.. the things they tell me r so different.. i really wonder if any of them are telling the truth at all? yea i know.. ppl change.. but to not believe in a friend that has never lied to me before is quite impssible.. as i said.. i hate liars.. i do.. i really do.. but when its a good fren or sum1 once close to me.. i cant believe that they would lie to me.. i mean... y would they? r they juz trying to help or r they juz trying to make matters worse? these ppl r really making my confused.. y cant they juz let me off? y cant they juz let me hav my simple life back? y cant they juz stop interfering with my life? well i was quite suprised tht sum1 actually reads my blog.. although i dunno hoo that person is.. i guess u can ignore me this time.. i'm juz tired.. tired of living.. tired of studying.. tired of everything around me.. i want to be happy.. i want to be free.. free of liars.. free of hypocrites.. free of irritating brainless idiots frm my class.. free of arguments.. free of my own problems.. but i cant.. this is reality n in reality.. life sucks to the max.. this is life... the cruel reality.. i've come to realize there isnt really anyone u can trust in this world.. well.. for me at least.. i've yet to find sum1 that is really true to me.. some1 who really understands me.. ppl always tell me they'll be there for me if i need sum1.. but when i really need sum1.. where r they? when i try to call them.. wad i always get is an unanswered call.. n for those who picked up.. well.. they r juz as depressed as i am.. n in da end.. i hav to act optimistic n console them.. this is so so so stupid.. n that incident.. i dunno.. u tell me.. who to believe?

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:33 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon