well its ade 5 am in da morning.. n i cant slp.. haha... insomnia? nahh.. dun think so la.. blame it on myslef la.. slept too much in da afternoon... n now i'm so wide awake.. cant slp at all.. watch 4 episodes of da hong kong movie on my laptop... well... time passes fast ehh... i'm already here for 3 weeks... i guess i'm still alright.. ahah... actually.. better than i had expected it to be.. made loads of frenx n got to knw many music lovers oso.. hehx.. later hav to clean my room ade loo.. parents n grandparents comin on sunday.. hee... dun wan them to complain abt my room.. lolx..

anyway... i'm still getting on pretty well with my sch work... not much of a problem so far la.. luckily some of my frenx r frm PA classes last time.. can ask them if i cant understand..

me n my ex started tokin again.. on9 that is.. hez in america anyway.. everything is fine now.. can joke like how we used to.. actually even better than how we used to be... at least now there r no more arguments.. we've come such a long way to become frenx.. hope we'll remain this way.. :)

after all these years in sec life.. i realized i matured alot.. the way i think.. act.. speak.. well.. shud say a big thanks to those hoo made my life miserable in my form 5 life.. although it was terrible i agree... but i learnt how to control my temper better.. i always act too rashly.. i hav to learn to think 1st.. well i'm in a new environment now.. everything is going very well for me.. although sometimes i do feel abit empty inside.. like as if something is missing.. at nights like this, i'll start thinking alot.. bt luckily i found frenx here that i can trust.. frenx who are really true to me.. really hope i can make more frenx here.. my shifu said.. u onli need a few besties arnd u.. those tht u can rely on when u hav problems.. well shifu... i've already found the frenx u meant... dun worry.. :)

well i really miss my old frenx too.. like yixian, jyeswei, n my godbroz... not to mention liyinn n meishyuan hoo will be comin to mmu in june.. u knw today i was lookin at me ex classmate's friendster... a gal hoo was in my class in form 5... she had abt 40+ fotoz in her friendster.. n i actually found out tht none of her fotos had me in it... i was quite sad of course.. to think that they actually took so many fotox in sch without askin me to take sum fotox with them... n there it was.. my form 5 class foto.. without me in it.. y? juz because i was helping sum juniors with the st john stuff.. n they juz conviniently forgot about me.. i hav nothin to say of course.. wad to do.. i wasnt really in good terms wid my classmates back then.. onli a few were okayy.. i nv liked their way of friendship.. sorry to say.. i dun like big groups of friends.. there are always the ones that get left out.. n does every1 in da group really bond with each other? da answer is no. they juz hang out together for the sake of hanging out together.. not really because of the bond.. and when someone important in da group isnt there... the whole group of frienx juz falls apart.. that is wad i dont like.. me on da other hand... had always enjoyed a small group of closely bonded frenx... at least when u hav problems.. u'll hav someone to listen to u.. someone to cry to.. whereas when there is 1 big group of frenx.. n there isnt any close bond towards 1 another.. u wont knw who to go to.. like frm my experience... i once had a big gang of frenx back then in form 3... we would hang out together everyday at da dewan.. everythin was fine.. or so i thought.. until 1 of da more important ppl went away... to study in another country.. my whole gang broke up into little pieces.. ppl who used to hang out together suddenly started goin their own ways.. dats da saddest part.. thats when i realize thats not how a close group of frenx should be.. there shouldnt be any main person in da group.. when there are ppl left out, they start to try n get attention n this is where all the conflicts come in... i'd rather hav a few close frenx where every1 is equally important... well thats frm my perspective of course.. whether u agree or not doesnt really matter to me... haha..

juz scrolled up n realized i've crap so much today.. lolx... not like my usual self.. haha.. anyway... will try and go to slp la... signing out peeps!

i look upon the moon and stars at 5:12 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

PHEW... finally got time to really sit down n blog... yea.. so... this week i was like... SUPER bz n tired as well... yea.. monday went for dinner with christina.. shobita.. n her cf frenx at mmu corner.. then they acc me back to bbu. i took my guit.. n they acc me to sch! haha... then i went for da audition for guitarists at 9pm... a bit nervous la.. since its been a long time since i really played my guit in front of ppl.... dat night there were abt.... 40 ppl la.. when it was my turn.. i went to da front... n most of da peeps were quite suprised i guess... cuz all the other ppl hoo went for the audition were guys... i was da onli female guitarist.. hmmm.....i wonder y... guitar so difficult mer... a bit painful at beginning onli wad.. lolx... i played david tao's regular friends.. everything went quite well i guess... saw some pianists too... they were okay la.. bt not outstanding lo.. like normal onli la... saw a few crazy electric guitarists though... n not forgetting drummerz too.. didnt finish listening to all da auditions la.. so i dunno the how well the other slots performed... went home at arnd 10 lo...

tuesday.. had jls meeting for da jap cultural night thingy.. me n christina are the working commitee... we went into da performance group... had our meeting n stuff... then went yam cha wid christina, chris who is our performance group leader.. n winston... a vv tall guy.. lolx.. ahaha... all same group la.. they acc me back to bbu.. yam cha there.. n we sorta "forced" chris to pay for us la.. ahhaa... leader muz take care of us maaa.. lolx... then christina decided to stay at my place lo since it was midnight ade...

weds.. late for sch... ahaha... me n christina lo.. too slow ade.. we were late by 5 mins... lol... did our english assignment in da library.. then went to pasar malam wid christina, shobita, sher bean n her cuz.. bought fruits.. dinner.. n my fav tomatoes!! hahaa... then went hme wid my hsemates lo... slept vvvv early lo.. too tired... knock out at 11.30... bt didnt slp well oso la... dunno y oso.. hmm..

thurs.. i got through the audition! ahhaa.. saw my name in da list on da website... i was goin to play 1 song for da concert.. yay! ahha.. lolx.. acc christina to da guitar class lo.. then had meeting for da concert thingy.. met up wid my so called "band" haha.... 1 bassist, 1 electric guitarist, 1 accoustic guitarist.. 1 drummer.. 1 keyboardist, 1 lead singer.. n 2 backup singers.. yepx... if not mistaken.. ALL GUYS.. ahaha.. except for me of course.. yepx.. juz checked da names again..confirm... ahhaa.... i knw 3 of them r final year students.. seniors la.. ahah.. bt gd oso la.. can learn frm them.. so we'll hav practice every other thursday night.. n every sat/sun... morning... if nt mustaken.. da concert will be on da 2nd of April.. yeah.. then christina slept over again! haha..

friday.. we woke up 2 hours earlier.. juz to make sure we wont be late.. ahah.. nthn much today.. all of them went hme.. i'll be rotting at hme again.. parents coming on sunday wid my grandparents as well.. dats all i guess... bye peeps!

i look upon the moon and stars at 12:59 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

yoz.. yest so shuang.. went downstairs to limteh wid YOONG MEI n peixuan... shing ni as usual... stayed at hme... then YOONG MEI ordered a burger for me.. ahha... v special 1.. not like those we normally eat.. then YOONG MEI ate 1 too.. HAHAHA... sum1 sure v happy i mentioned her name sooo many times.. lolx! anyway.. these 2 days... i spent like... altogehter... 10 hours in da sch library? AHHAA.... nice la.. gt aircon... n da best thing is.. they hav LOTS N LOTS of STEPHEN KING NOVELS!!! hahaa..... my fav man.... tml goin there again... gonna do business maths tutorial work.. alot lo.. sienx... anyway... goin back to my nover now.. ahha... bye!

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:30 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

i'm in da sch lab wid christina now.. lol.. shud be doin our assignment de.... bt dis comp i'm using cannot use microsoft word... sumthing wrong wid da programme i guess... so yea... sum1 sleeping beside me now..... she juz woke up... abit blur blur... v sien ler... nthn to do lidaat.... havta wait till class starts..... -_-... now still lunch time... haihx...... tired.... i wanna slp oso..... hahaha... k la.. nth to write liaoz.... tok tonite.... or mebbe tml la.... bye ppeps!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:29 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

juz came back.. damn tired.. today got gathering for the micros peeps.. so went there lo..sat there like bengang for a while.. then da seniors came to tok to me.. then we started jamming lo.. played non stop for 3 hours man... tired siall.. long time nv played da guit for so long ade... so it seems dat mmu oso no gal guitarist de wor.. hmmm... i'm da onli 1 again... lol... nvm la... anyway... v tired ade... goin off.. chao

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:58 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:41 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

wahh.... so tired these few days... haha.. had been goin out for 2 nights in a row ade.... todays gonna be da 3rd day.. well... went out on monday night.. hmm... had audition for the demos... didnt expect so many entries la.. like almost 50? haha.... so we started at 7.30.. listened to da demos 1 by 1 n occasionally giving some comments.... of course... da composers' names wasnt disclosed.. i can say tht some songs r v well written.. n da singers r really... fooh... if u get wad i mean... really quality work... some really put in alot of effort in making the demos... use midi la... n dat sorta stuff.. n do until nice nice 1... but when there r gd stuff.. there r bound to be some not-so-good-ones la... not to say lousy ones la.. i knw every1 put in their effort... there were many "jay" fans i think.. haha.. cuz many of the songs sounded like jay's songs... like as if they are murmuring da whole song... but it was a gd exposure for me la.. didnt hav all these in sec life back then... we had 1 similiar activity back then in sec sch.. bt didnt get a gd response i guess... u knw la... sec ppl... u think every1 so semangat-ed like me ar.... HAHA.... i admit la.. i was OVER-semangat.. lolx... but sadly... my songs didnt get picked la... cuz there wewre many songs tht were similiar to my song... cuz mine is those sentimental type ma... n i believe many are better than me.... so yea... nvm la... haha.... i'll continue writing songs dun worry... that is.... if i hav da inspiration la... haha..

ok... tuesday.. happy valentine's day ppl! haha... had lecture frm 8 to 10... after tht christina n i went back to my room lo... did hmework n listened to some songs.. hehe... went back to sch at 2... had class till 4... then i was vvvv lazy to go back hme again.. so i went wid sher bean n christina to their room in EP lo... we came out again n had our "valentine's dinner" together... AHHAA.... did our hmework there.... (so guai hor... nt like me.. HAHA!) then went back to sch at 8... there was a briefing for new chinese society members la.. n it lasted till 10 sumthing lo.. came hme... n felt like drinkin tea.. so asked peixuan to acc me downstairs... limteh! hahaa..... well dats abt it i guess.. will be goin out again tonight... wahh... tired.. ahah.. k la... bye!

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:03 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

yozz... well.. saturday n sunday was pretty boring i guess.. there is nthn to do in malacca... ahaha.... n the free time after classes... yea... v free.. so i decided to enter a few clubs... to occupy myself.. ahah... hope i dun get to bz in da end.. haha.. so yeah... these 2 days... stayed at home.. gd gal hor... lol.... becuz all my coursemates went hme ade!! haa.... i dun understand y every1 wanna go back ler.. hmm... my dad came on friday.... brought me my guitars!!!! haha... my darling APX... haha... n my mini amplifier.... miss the laney though... ahha... bt nvm la.. can get to play wid it when i get back to jb... laney is my other amp if u dunno wad izzit.. haha.. then dad fetched my hsemate back to jb... he asked me if i wanted to go back... bt i said duwan.. lol.. so i spent almost da whole saturday watching a hong kong drama wid my hsemate.. aha.. v nice la.. we actually watched 6 episodes!! haha... then at night.... 2 of my hsemates had sumthing on.. so they went out... left me n another hsemate.. so we went for dinner at an arabic restaurant! haha... special la.. 1st time.. ahha.. then sunday... whole day rot at hme... then went out for dinner with hsemates at a nyonya restaurant.. nt bad oso.. hehx.. i think thts all la... today got audition at 7.15pm sia! abit scared.. ahah.. will update abt it later! CHAO!

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:07 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

wah paiseh... so long nv update bout my week in MMU... so yea... 1st week studying.. since... erm.. 2 months ago? ahha.. abit gong liao la.... bt still okayy... all together i'm taking 5 subjects... its compulsory anyway... computer applications, principles of economics, english, business maths, n accounting.. yeah... my timetable is abut luan lo... oh ya.. forgot to mention i got into class PM40... dunno wad class is tht oso.. cuz there r 4 classes... PM 40 - 43... 43 is currently empty.. i do not know y.. bt who cares.. karen is in my class... so ya.. made some frenx here... like christina n sher bean... nice ppl i can say... dun wanna mention the not so nice ones though.. lol... luckily every1 in my class r nice ppl la... n u knw... i got lost on my 1st day... AAA... so blur lo me... i'm supposed to get back hme in 10 mins time.. u knw how long it took me to get hme? 25 mins... RIGHT.... ahha.... i got lost... i'm supposed to turn right.. i go turn left... hhahhaa... luckily i found my way back.. haha.. 1st week is nice la... although we were v confused abt da classes... we r given class names like... CLCR2003, FSER5022, ACR1007.. how's dat.. ahaha.. da CLC, FSE n AC r building names... then da R/L r actually right or left.. so dat means u turn right or left in da building.. den da 1st number is da floor number n da last numbers r da classroom numbers... lol... luan hor... bt can get used to it now ade la.. n 1 more thing lo... da food here is so so so so so cheap lo.. da chicken chop n fish n chips r like... 4.50 onli? n believe me its da name porpotion as jb's... n all da fried mee, meehoon... onli 2.50... yeahh... haha... i'm so gonna put on weight here.. yikes.... muz control... ahha.. summore got pasar malam here every monday n weds... k la... will stop here la... continue nx week.. haha... bye ppl!

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:09 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

so i am now officially in melacca!! haha... n dis post is specially for SU-LYN de orh!!! cuz i i promised her to update often la! haha... so here i am in my room blogging! haha...

ORIENTATION

1ST DAY
yepx... woke up early in da morning.... ate breakfast.... n left kl wid my parents... headed for mmu melacca... reached melacca at 9 n went for the registration lor... we had a placement test... which is an english test to determine which class we get into la... so we did da test... using da comp... in da comp lab... all together 70 questions... sorta like est liddat la.... all objective questions lo.... got 5 comprehensions i think.... abt that la.. so i finished it ade... checked ade... n left da lab after 1 hour lo... then we were divided into groups.... all together 15 groups... n were introduced to our mobile leaders who r our seniors la... i was in group 2... together with karen...whereas xuan hao was is group 12.... well our mobile leader was Puvan... an indian la... so we started orientation lo... the OCs (orientation comittee) hoo were also our seniors were v nice lo... they r frm SRC... which stands for student representitive council.... 1st day was quite boring la actually... cuz we had all these briefing frm various departments in mmu... then it was ice breaking session.... i almost fell aslp lo... our mobile leader asked us to into ourselves... n welll.... every1 was like... v quiet larr... then da guys fell aslp... hw nice rite? i was thinkin to myself.. shit... i'm goin to be with this group for 3 days... how am i goin to survive??? then we elected our team leader... actually was by random la.... so da team leader was picked.... Amy... hooz da oldest among us all la.. shez doin her degree course ma... 21 years old.. nt that old la actually... n we were given an assignment... to find all 20 SRC member's signature... n comments as well.... i was like... doink..... with all the members liddat arr.... right..... so our leaderr kept da paper lo... n we went back... dat was da 1st day... yepx...

2ND DAY
alright... lets tok abt da 2nd day... well we had to gather at the main field at 7.30... early hor... then had a breakfast.. n it was briefings n briefings again... then we had games like... old stjohn games la... da bom game remember? n a new game introduced by out OCs... war game... nice la.. had lots of fun there... then we were taught to sing our uni song... Permata Dunia.... i tell u its DAMN DAMN DAMN nice... really!! da singr's voice like a mix between jaclyn victor n siti nurhaliza.... then finally it was time for our lunch break n u knw wad? da OC's ask us to get their signatures... how nice... n we spent like... 1 hour of our 2 hour lunch break to get their signatures? ahaa... n da best thing was... most of them changed their name tags.... made us so confused lo! bt we got most of them la... they go ask us crazy questions like wad is da longest word with a,e,i,o,u inside? da answer is education... wad is da longest word without a,e,i,o,u inside? da answer is rhythm... abit lame la... bt some were quite nice though... n throughout the whole thing... my oc disappeared..... right.... he couldnt be found... he go ask sum other oc to jaga us.... nvm.... after lunch it was back to briefings n briefings again... n lastly we had a sch tour... da OCs brought us around da sch introducing us to the diff blocks.... n we had our dinner break... they asked us to be back at da main hall at 8pm... great.. haha... i was like so zadaoed.. bt wad to do? so had dinner with my parents lo... n got back to sch.. the muslims had their prayer sesion together... so we non muslims had our own activities... n it was... DEBATE... lol... we were seperated into 8 diff groups.. n it was a short comp la... so didnt follow da normal way of a debate comp.... da 1st n 2nd speaker is given 1 mins each whereas da 3rd speaker is given 2 mins to conclude... sasi was my oc for debate... he la.... made me as da 3rd speaker... cuz i was da onli 1 who toked to him during da sch tour... haha.. then he elected another 2 as 1st n 2nd speaker lo... da title we got was "Good grades secure a better future".. we were da opposing team... so... to me.. i think we had da advantage la... we were given 10mins to prepare n we were up... the supporting team actually had a cvnt gal there sial... saw the 80th anniversary shirt she was wearing... she was da 2nd speaker.. it was nice la da debate... i shoot them teruk teruk.. HAHA.... bt i was like sooooooo nervous lo! speaking in front of at least 200-280 ppl sial... long time nv tok in front of so many ppl ade.... then the emcees asked da audience to shout which team they think should win..n most of them shouted ourr team!!! team 1~~ hahaa...we won!!!! haha.. so happy lo... then it was da semi finals.. we got da topic "Students should involve themselves in political activities"... abit da zadaoed la... cuz we were da supporting team... its like... how many students u see today r invloved in political activities?? ahaa.. then our dear Sasi said wanna change da speakers.... i was like so happy... but NO.. he wasnt gonna let me off juz like that... he changed da 1st n 2nd speaker... bt asked me to remain as the 3rd speaker!! AAAA... ahaa... he said i can debate wor... bangga sial!! haha... so we debated lo.. it was a good 1 la.. we tried our best... actually da audience thought so too de.... they shouted our team number u knw... but da emcee thought there were too little ppl there... so asked ONE of the dunno who it is... sum member of da src or dunno who to judge us... it was so unfair lo!! n he go let da opposing group win... as if he listened at all... he was bz tokin at da back lo.. SIALL... aaha.. bt nvm la... at least we got to go back at 10am sharp.... those finallists went back at dunno wad time.. 11? i duno... lol... dat night i couldnt really slp... dunno y..too high ade.. HAHA...

3RD DAY
Got up early in da morning.... assembled at da main field again... ate da vvvv yucky breakfast again.. haa.. n then ot was back to briefings again... bt da 3rd day ended early though... had da closing ceremony at 1 pm... we had it with mmu cyberjaya campus oso u knw.... live 1 ler... so in our screen... we can see them n in their screen they can see us! so nice lo... the president of mmu was in da malacca campus! so da cyber campus ppl had t look at da screen da whole time during his speech... after the closing ceremony, we went to da comp lab to verify our registration lo.. well dats abt it for my 3 days orientation! haha..

i look upon the moon and stars at 9:30 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

yozz... in kl now lor... laz day of my holidays after spm... ahha... abit sad larr.... sobx... bt nervous at da same time oso.... tml i'll be goin to melacca mmu early in da morning... scared scared lerr... new surroundings... new sch... new faces... new friends.... bt of cuz i wont forget my old buddies oso la... hehx...

well these 3 days in kl was alot of fun! hehe... went shopping at ioi mall n 1 utama oso! nice lo... i fell in love wid 1 utama ade... its so so so big lo! so many shops there... mum said i hav too many dark colour t shirts.. all either black or blue.. ahah... so she ask me to go buy sum bright coloured ones... so yea.. bought 4 new shirts!! ahah... 1 is voir de... pink stipes 1... another 1 is giordano i think... green stripes 1... another 2 r plain 1.... 1 green 1 blue.. heh... bright hor... i dun think i ever wore colour like these b4... haha... then bought da hush puppies skirt i wanted!! happy lor! dat time saw it in metro in jb... bt so ngam da 1 i want didnt hav buttons sewn on! so kek sim lorh.... ahaha.. bt luckily kl got! supposed to be 89.90 1... bt got sale.. so got it for 62 onli! 30 percent off sia! so happy lor! then we went hunting for a pair of formal shoes... mummy said my shoes all nt formal enuf... so better buy a pair in case gt any formal things... n finally after walkin for like... 1 hour plus in 1 utama... walking into every single shoe shp... i found my shoes!! last pair summore! haha... lucky man...

then today went to sunway pyramid... n i FINALLY bought da alarm clock i want! haha.... its like i've been searching for a nice 1 for weeks ade lo! aunt bought it for me!! pink colour 1.. damn cute lo!! lurve it! haha...... anyway.. got all da things i need ade la i think.. so shud be no problem in melacca la! haha... summore got shp juz downstairs onli.. can go buy! hee hee....

anywayz.... will update more tml la! so yarr.. wish me all da best! haha... bye ppl! melacca here i come!!

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:13 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon