Saturday, February 25, 2006
well its ade 5 am in da morning.. n i cant slp.. haha... insomnia? nahh.. dun think so la.. blame it on myslef la.. slept too much in da afternoon... n now i'm so wide awake.. cant slp at all.. watch 4 episodes of da hong kong movie on my laptop... well... time passes fast ehh... i'm already here for 3 weeks... i guess i'm still alright.. ahah... actually.. better than i had expected it to be.. made loads of frenx n got to knw many music lovers oso.. hehx.. later hav to clean my room ade loo.. parents n grandparents comin on sunday.. hee... dun wan them to complain abt my room.. lolx..
anyway... i'm still getting on pretty well with my sch work... not much of a problem so far la.. luckily some of my frenx r frm PA classes last time.. can ask them if i cant understand..
me n my ex started tokin again.. on9 that is.. hez in america anyway.. everything is fine now.. can joke like how we used to.. actually even better than how we used to be... at least now there r no more arguments.. we've come such a long way to become frenx.. hope we'll remain this way.. :)
after all these years in sec life.. i realized i matured alot.. the way i think.. act.. speak.. well.. shud say a big thanks to those hoo made my life miserable in my form 5 life.. although it was terrible i agree... but i learnt how to control my temper better.. i always act too rashly.. i hav to learn to think 1st.. well i'm in a new environment now.. everything is going very well for me.. although sometimes i do feel abit empty inside.. like as if something is missing.. at nights like this, i'll start thinking alot.. bt luckily i found frenx here that i can trust.. frenx who are really true to me.. really hope i can make more frenx here.. my shifu said.. u onli need a few besties arnd u.. those tht u can rely on when u hav problems.. well shifu... i've already found the frenx u meant... dun worry.. :)
well i really miss my old frenx too.. like yixian, jyeswei, n my godbroz... not to mention liyinn n meishyuan hoo will be comin to mmu in june.. u knw today i was lookin at me ex classmate's friendster... a gal hoo was in my class in form 5... she had abt 40+ fotoz in her friendster.. n i actually found out tht none of her fotos had me in it... i was quite sad of course.. to think that they actually took so many fotox in sch without askin me to take sum fotox with them... n there it was.. my form 5 class foto.. without me in it.. y? juz because i was helping sum juniors with the st john stuff.. n they juz conviniently forgot about me.. i hav nothin to say of course.. wad to do.. i wasnt really in good terms wid my classmates back then.. onli a few were okayy.. i nv liked their way of friendship.. sorry to say.. i dun like big groups of friends.. there are always the ones that get left out.. n does every1 in da group really bond with each other? da answer is no. they juz hang out together for the sake of hanging out together.. not really because of the bond.. and when someone important in da group isnt there... the whole group of frienx juz falls apart.. that is wad i dont like.. me on da other hand... had always enjoyed a small group of closely bonded frenx... at least when u hav problems.. u'll hav someone to listen to u.. someone to cry to.. whereas when there is 1 big group of frenx.. n there isnt any close bond towards 1 another.. u wont knw who to go to.. like frm my experience... i once had a big gang of frenx back then in form 3... we would hang out together everyday at da dewan.. everythin was fine.. or so i thought.. until 1 of da more important ppl went away... to study in another country.. my whole gang broke up into little pieces.. ppl who used to hang out together suddenly started goin their own ways.. dats da saddest part.. thats when i realize thats not how a close group of frenx should be.. there shouldnt be any main person in da group.. when there are ppl left out, they start to try n get attention n this is where all the conflicts come in... i'd rather hav a few close frenx where every1 is equally important... well thats frm my perspective of course.. whether u agree or not doesnt really matter to me... haha..
juz scrolled up n realized i've crap so much today.. lolx... not like my usual self.. haha.. anyway... will try and go to slp la... signing out peeps!
anyway... i'm still getting on pretty well with my sch work... not much of a problem so far la.. luckily some of my frenx r frm PA classes last time.. can ask them if i cant understand..
me n my ex started tokin again.. on9 that is.. hez in america anyway.. everything is fine now.. can joke like how we used to.. actually even better than how we used to be... at least now there r no more arguments.. we've come such a long way to become frenx.. hope we'll remain this way.. :)
after all these years in sec life.. i realized i matured alot.. the way i think.. act.. speak.. well.. shud say a big thanks to those hoo made my life miserable in my form 5 life.. although it was terrible i agree... but i learnt how to control my temper better.. i always act too rashly.. i hav to learn to think 1st.. well i'm in a new environment now.. everything is going very well for me.. although sometimes i do feel abit empty inside.. like as if something is missing.. at nights like this, i'll start thinking alot.. bt luckily i found frenx here that i can trust.. frenx who are really true to me.. really hope i can make more frenx here.. my shifu said.. u onli need a few besties arnd u.. those tht u can rely on when u hav problems.. well shifu... i've already found the frenx u meant... dun worry.. :)
well i really miss my old frenx too.. like yixian, jyeswei, n my godbroz... not to mention liyinn n meishyuan hoo will be comin to mmu in june.. u knw today i was lookin at me ex classmate's friendster... a gal hoo was in my class in form 5... she had abt 40+ fotoz in her friendster.. n i actually found out tht none of her fotos had me in it... i was quite sad of course.. to think that they actually took so many fotox in sch without askin me to take sum fotox with them... n there it was.. my form 5 class foto.. without me in it.. y? juz because i was helping sum juniors with the st john stuff.. n they juz conviniently forgot about me.. i hav nothin to say of course.. wad to do.. i wasnt really in good terms wid my classmates back then.. onli a few were okayy.. i nv liked their way of friendship.. sorry to say.. i dun like big groups of friends.. there are always the ones that get left out.. n does every1 in da group really bond with each other? da answer is no. they juz hang out together for the sake of hanging out together.. not really because of the bond.. and when someone important in da group isnt there... the whole group of frienx juz falls apart.. that is wad i dont like.. me on da other hand... had always enjoyed a small group of closely bonded frenx... at least when u hav problems.. u'll hav someone to listen to u.. someone to cry to.. whereas when there is 1 big group of frenx.. n there isnt any close bond towards 1 another.. u wont knw who to go to.. like frm my experience... i once had a big gang of frenx back then in form 3... we would hang out together everyday at da dewan.. everythin was fine.. or so i thought.. until 1 of da more important ppl went away... to study in another country.. my whole gang broke up into little pieces.. ppl who used to hang out together suddenly started goin their own ways.. dats da saddest part.. thats when i realize thats not how a close group of frenx should be.. there shouldnt be any main person in da group.. when there are ppl left out, they start to try n get attention n this is where all the conflicts come in... i'd rather hav a few close frenx where every1 is equally important... well thats frm my perspective of course.. whether u agree or not doesnt really matter to me... haha..
juz scrolled up n realized i've crap so much today.. lolx... not like my usual self.. haha.. anyway... will try and go to slp la... signing out peeps!
i look upon the moon and stars at
5:12 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon