something is wrong with me.. suddenly i feel like posting another post again... hmmm....

recently sum1 asked me abt my ex again.. n made me start to think n wonder... how is he?

we've lost contact for around 3 months by now... since he came back to msia.. we've totally lost contact.. i dont know y... maybe i'm juz tired... tired to contact him... maybe i've grown up from my naiveness.. holding on to the promise we've made to each other that we'd still be best friends.. it doesnt seem so now does it?

i've changed...

i've seen alot... too much i can say... sometimes i really get tired... although yea... i do feel lonely at times... i still feel da emptiness in my heart... bt its been a long time.. maybe i have already got used to it.. or am i scared? scared to even face myself... my own thoughts.... its hard to make myself fall in love again.. not because of my ex... i dont know... its like a voice in my head telling myself... even if i like some1, its juz a feeling... it'll fade... thats wad the voice has been telling me...

i'm cheating myself...

i know.. but what can i do? its this voice in me thats making me... i should say unsensitive towards my own feelings anymore... and i dont know wad to do about it..

its so difficult to love again..

i look upon the moon and stars at 3:05 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

well well well.... wasnt expecting myself to blog... but anyway... here i am...

so yeah... finals next week... i'm starting to feel the stress ade... these few weeks ive been stayin in ixora... i'm becoming a PR there... lolx...

oh well... all my projects have come to an end... website submitted... prob n stats tutorial handed in... business project ended... yepx... we earned a total of RM206.. all donated to charity... well i really have to thank my group members... for giving coorperation to me... its not easy being a group leader.. bt thanks to all of them... we did it... jellies, biscuits, n marshmallows.. all sold out.. hehx...

guitar class has ended... feedbacks are ok... quite good i can say.. except for some tutors... ~~~ wont elaborate on that..



this sem is coming to an end... life has been very busy... hectic should be the word... always rushing here and there.. sometimes i do miss the times like last semester... when chris, winston, christina, bean n me... always together... eat togeher... study together... go out together... sleepover together at chris's place or at my place... last semester i had much more free time.. more time to bond with the few of them... things wouldnt be the same again would it?

although i do miss laz sem alot... i cant deny that i had alot of fun this sem too... minus the tiredness... lol... after joining micros as a committee... i learned alot.. n made a new bunch of good frenx too...


n i realized too... my "counselling" skills are improving.. lolx... well this counselling job hasnt stopped for me this sem.. haha.... the onli difference is... the people i counsell keep changing.. well i wont say i'm a good counseller but i'm definitely a good listener.. well at least i cn help some ppl... which is gd enuf..

hmm wad else.. dat day me, ee jie n jessica went to jonker street ooo!!! lolx... n u know wad happened? it rained.... wad de piang... if dats not enuf, guess wad? we took off our shoes n we were practically running bare footed all over jonker street IN THE RAIN... haha... n there we were all wet splashing water at each other... haha... n we ate keropok n drank liang teh in the rain... AHAHA!!! anyway... we were vvv happy la... haha... except for eejie when she fell sick da nx day... LOL.... we went on dis taxi on da way back... man i tell u.... da taxi uncle is hillarious man.... keep asking us stupid IQ questions... hhaa.... damn funny man.... oh ya... we bought a few necklace... hehe... in da end we reached home happy, tired n wet.. haha...

k la k la... 1 am d n i havent studied anything yet... i'm so dead... will update more soon.... nic out!

i look upon the moon and stars at 10:59 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

Yozz.... had the performance at jonker street last night... it was a success i can say... many ppl gathered arnd to see... i can say althought we weren't the best team... bt at least we weren't da worst.. ahha... no la... every1 was good... not forgetting the Wings singers... damn were they a bomb with cao ge's superwoman.. they did a fantastic 3 person acapella at the start... dunno whether any1 had the vid of it... bt anyway... me n ah cheng were the 1st to represent micros la... sang guo xiong's yuan lai ai... it was nt bad... heh.. too bad hsien yun didnt record it dwn... then wingee sang kai liang n wei keong's tian kong ye zhi dao.. yeps... was a bit pitchy n wingee forgot a few lines bt she managed to pull it through.. haha... we were like running a marathon... cuz us, which is micros song composing div , nian shao qing song composing group, xuan music cafe, n wings music cafe took turns singing... starting frm 8.30 till around 12! haha... around 9 sumthing it ws our slot again.. this time we sang pop songs.. i sang ah mei's ji de with ah cheng.. not bd... too bad ah cheng's mic was too far... so it was quite soft... then played di yu tian shi for wingee... she did a great job this time around...

after everything has ended, we headed to the nearby restraunt to celebrate with the nian shao qing peeps.. had a great time la... 1st time singing in such a special place.. hehx.. bt it was quite a pity la.. didnt had the chance to go to the other stations to see the other ppl sing.. cuz there were bands at other stations... whereas ours was the unplugged station.. hehx...

k la.. thts all for this post... chao!

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:22 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

hey hey hey!!! I am officially back in the blogsphere! yepx... after say... erm.. 2 months? yeahh... i'm starting to miss blogging about my daily life....

So yeah... wad happened ehh? Seems lot.. lets hav a re-cap of wad i did... if i still remember anyhting at all! lolx...

lets see... my studies for this sem seems okay so far... da most suprising 1 shud be my probability n statistics paper i guess... i got 59/60 man!! xiadaaaooo.. lol... others ok la... nt too gd but can be considered above average...

hmm... oh yea.. i'm now a committee of cls (chinese language society) micros song composing div.
currently in charge of the guitar classes... i'm teaching as well... chio ler! haha... nthn to brag abt actually... cuz there r 6 other ppl teaching with me.. HAHA! we r juz assistants... helping out da teacher...

last week i went to town.. to learn how to make tea! hhaa... nt da normal teh o... u know.. erm.. chinese tea? da traditional type? yeahh... there was this 1 day course la... so i went.. with a few other cls committee... it was fun... hehe.... learnt alot...

n oh ya... i'm staying over at wingee's place these few days! haha.... holiday ma... national day... so yeahh... came over...

tml i'll be performing at malacca's jonker street!!! woohoo!!! 1st time man! i'll be playing da guit for 4 songs... 2 for wingee n 2 for ah cheng... i'll be singing with ah cheng as well.. heh... i'll be singing ah mei's ji de... its a medley actually... ahcheng will be singing jj's bu dong.. then i'll be singing backup for ah cheng's song.. which is yuan lai ai.. written by one of our seniors..

anyway... v tired d la... its almost 2.30am d.. aha... gonna hav a hair cut tml mornin... ah cheng fetching me.. yay! no need to walk.. haha... nic out!

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:58 PM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon