Sunday, November 05, 2006
3 weeks of holidays have passed...
Lets start da entry with a saddening news... i did really badly in my 2nd sem finals... yeah... i mean REALLY BADLY... n guess wad? i got a C+ for my English... C+!!!!! I went crazy... I cried straight away once i saw the results... i cudnt slp the whole night... I just cant accept the fact i got a C+ for my english... i've never gotten anything below A for my english since primary school... nt dat i wannt brag abt it... english has been my strongest subject all along... i really cant believe i did so badly... my parents asked me to appeal for a re-mark for my english paper... well... we'll see how things go... anyway... my gpa dropped frm 3.74 to 3.2... big dive ehh? i couldnt believe it either... i did v well for my midterm.. i hav no idea wad happened... i guess i was to engrossed in club activities... Monday, Wednesday n Thursday nights were all reserved for club activities... added to that, we needed to design a website for our computer applications project, n we needed to make jelly n sell them for our business management project... all of these were too time consuming for me to cope with... i really felt very bad... i felt very bad for being too active in activities... i felt very bad for not studying enough... i felt very bad for not doing well in my finals...
用华文打吧。我上了大学后，下定决心要努力读书，为了要证明给我的父母看，我是能读书的，我是能够自立的。第一学期总算没白费，考出了好成绩。不过现在，我好像又跌落谷底似的。以前中学时的的种种原因让我无法专心读书，以为上了大学能够抛开一切，重新来过，谁知道结果还是一样，我还是忙于课外活动。我觉得真的很对不起自己。明明努力地拼了， 年中考考到好成绩了，却又偏偏落败于年终考。可笑吧？唯有下学期努力拼过了。。。
好了，伤心事说完了，来一点开心的吧！
三个礼拜的假期虽然很短，但我也算过得很充实。跟姐妹出去，上吉隆坡找chris和winston，跟微晶创作坊的朋友唱k，跟“老爸”出去，去找乾弟，跟莉颖去看戏，跟姐妹唱k，跟乾哥们出去，帮二哥庆祝生日，家人帮我提早庆祝生日，还有好多好多。几乎每天都有约会。这三个礼拜我都过得很开心。对了！我买了好多部连戏剧哦！有时间的话可以慢慢看。
还有一件是，前男友最近有开始联络我了。他的“一时失踪，一时出现”把我弄得好混乱。真的不懂他到底在想什么？不管了。我也累了。最近我好像对一个人有好感，不过却不敢对他说些什么。也许是害怕再受伤害吧。以前的那道疤痕原来还是存在的。。。我一直在安慰着自己，也许对他只是暂时的喜欢，过一些日子就会慢慢淡掉的。可悲吧？一向叫人要勇往直前得我，一向坦率得我，在处理感情这种事情却是那么的懦弱。况且我跟他很有可能会分得好远好远，就算真的有感情，也是很难维持的。可以说是天使地利人和都不在我这一边吧。喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他，这是我时常劝朋友时说的，不过要用在自己身上时真的好难。我成熟了吧，变理智了。以前能不顾一切地去喜欢一个人，能把自己想说的都告诉他。现在，不一样了。需要考虑的事情太多了，也时常把事情藏在心里。变成熟了真的是件好事吗？
无论如何，我也只能等吧。希望能找到一个解决的方法。。。
Lets start da entry with a saddening news... i did really badly in my 2nd sem finals... yeah... i mean REALLY BADLY... n guess wad? i got a C+ for my English... C+!!!!! I went crazy... I cried straight away once i saw the results... i cudnt slp the whole night... I just cant accept the fact i got a C+ for my english... i've never gotten anything below A for my english since primary school... nt dat i wannt brag abt it... english has been my strongest subject all along... i really cant believe i did so badly... my parents asked me to appeal for a re-mark for my english paper... well... we'll see how things go... anyway... my gpa dropped frm 3.74 to 3.2... big dive ehh? i couldnt believe it either... i did v well for my midterm.. i hav no idea wad happened... i guess i was to engrossed in club activities... Monday, Wednesday n Thursday nights were all reserved for club activities... added to that, we needed to design a website for our computer applications project, n we needed to make jelly n sell them for our business management project... all of these were too time consuming for me to cope with... i really felt very bad... i felt very bad for being too active in activities... i felt very bad for not studying enough... i felt very bad for not doing well in my finals...
用华文打吧。我上了大学后，下定决心要努力读书，为了要证明给我的父母看，我是能读书的，我是能够自立的。第一学期总算没白费，考出了好成绩。不过现在，我好像又跌落谷底似的。以前中学时的的种种原因让我无法专心读书，以为上了大学能够抛开一切，重新来过，谁知道结果还是一样，我还是忙于课外活动。我觉得真的很对不起自己。明明努力地拼了， 年中考考到好成绩了，却又偏偏落败于年终考。可笑吧？唯有下学期努力拼过了。。。
好了，伤心事说完了，来一点开心的吧！
三个礼拜的假期虽然很短，但我也算过得很充实。跟姐妹出去，上吉隆坡找chris和winston，跟微晶创作坊的朋友唱k，跟“老爸”出去，去找乾弟，跟莉颖去看戏，跟姐妹唱k，跟乾哥们出去，帮二哥庆祝生日，家人帮我提早庆祝生日，还有好多好多。几乎每天都有约会。这三个礼拜我都过得很开心。对了！我买了好多部连戏剧哦！有时间的话可以慢慢看。
还有一件是，前男友最近有开始联络我了。他的“一时失踪，一时出现”把我弄得好混乱。真的不懂他到底在想什么？不管了。我也累了。最近我好像对一个人有好感，不过却不敢对他说些什么。也许是害怕再受伤害吧。以前的那道疤痕原来还是存在的。。。我一直在安慰着自己，也许对他只是暂时的喜欢，过一些日子就会慢慢淡掉的。可悲吧？一向叫人要勇往直前得我，一向坦率得我，在处理感情这种事情却是那么的懦弱。况且我跟他很有可能会分得好远好远，就算真的有感情，也是很难维持的。可以说是天使地利人和都不在我这一边吧。喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他，这是我时常劝朋友时说的，不过要用在自己身上时真的好难。我成熟了吧，变理智了。以前能不顾一切地去喜欢一个人，能把自己想说的都告诉他。现在，不一样了。需要考虑的事情太多了，也时常把事情藏在心里。变成熟了真的是件好事吗？
无论如何，我也只能等吧。希望能找到一个解决的方法。。。
i look upon the moon and stars at
12:48 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon