Thursday, November 06, 2008
Results are out... yep... totally screwed it again... i got like.. 3.2 gpa and my cgpa dropped again frm 3.34 to 3.31... I'm not at all happy with my results although it showed little improvement from my previous 1... I'm so so so angry at myself for not doing well. I could have done so much better.. I used to be able to get 1st class results... i could in the past, why not now? Is it that i'm reverting back to my lazy self? I cant let this go on...
I feel so bad.. This is not what i should get.. This is not me.. What happened? Being average is not enough.. I know i can do better.. I must work extra hard next sem..
Today my family celebrated my birthday.. I teared up when we were taking photos... I tried my best not to let any1 see it... It was my 1st birthday without grandpa.. Me, grandpa, n godpa used to celebrate our birthdays together.. our birthdays are only days apart.. n now... i'll never get to celebrate my birthday with grandpa anymore... Grandpa... i really miss u alot... Thanks for coming into my dreams b4 my accounting paper... u gave me the confidence i needed to sit for the paper... although i did not do well, i still passed.. I know u are watching me up there...
Its really hard for me to just wake up everyday and realize that you r not there anymore.. When i come back to jb, I see your car parked at grandma's house.. I dont see you walking out of the house to greet me.. I dont see you sitting at your table... I dont see you fetching da kids to school... it just breaks my heart... words cant describe my pain..
i really miss you...
I feel so bad.. This is not what i should get.. This is not me.. What happened? Being average is not enough.. I know i can do better.. I must work extra hard next sem..
Today my family celebrated my birthday.. I teared up when we were taking photos... I tried my best not to let any1 see it... It was my 1st birthday without grandpa.. Me, grandpa, n godpa used to celebrate our birthdays together.. our birthdays are only days apart.. n now... i'll never get to celebrate my birthday with grandpa anymore... Grandpa... i really miss u alot... Thanks for coming into my dreams b4 my accounting paper... u gave me the confidence i needed to sit for the paper... although i did not do well, i still passed.. I know u are watching me up there...
Its really hard for me to just wake up everyday and realize that you r not there anymore.. When i come back to jb, I see your car parked at grandma's house.. I dont see you walking out of the house to greet me.. I dont see you sitting at your table... I dont see you fetching da kids to school... it just breaks my heart... words cant describe my pain..
i really miss you...
i look upon the moon and stars at
1:32 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon