Thursday, April 09, 2009

I feel so stressed out n tired now.. I duno what am i doing wrong.. my voice just doesn't sound right.. every1 is telling me theres something wrong.. but when i ask more, no1 can tell me what did i do wrong.. I'm so frustrated at myself... I'm worried i might just spoil the song.. i dont want the comments to come out like: "this singer sucks", "she cant sing at all", "she went out of tune", "she totally spoilt the song".... N i onli have 2 weeks to make it right... what am I supposed to do?

I think i've been pushing myself too hard recently.. with all the practices n stuff.. I had an asthma attack 2 days ago.. n its the 1st time it ever happened to me.. I started coughing suddenly n the next thing i knew it, i had difficulty breathing.. took me 10 minutes to regulate my breathing again.. i broke out in cold sweat... i was shaking all over by the time the asthma stopped... i couldnt even talk properly.. hope it doesnt happen again..

I'm addicted to coffee recently... at 1st it was 1 cup per day... started drinking more n more.. i had 4 cups of coffee today itself.. n this has been going on for 2 weeks.. n its not helping to keep me focused... i cant seem to feel the effect of caffeine anymore..

theres something else making me very frustrated recently.. i have made things clear.. hope things will be fine soon..

i look upon the moon and stars at 1:59 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon