I've been thinking to myself quite a lot lately.. What is it that makes you a person as a whole? Is it true that no one can ever be THE perfect person in everyone's eyes? So no one is ever perfect right? Can one ever rectify a bad first impression? These questions really got me into thinking.. How much do I know about myself? I've been having these fluctuating feelings..

When i was in high school.. People used to say I was too serious.. I used to be depressed.. I used to be suicidal.. I used to think that theres no meaning in life..

I realized this problem.. I tried to understand myself more.. I tried to look at things in different perspectives.. I changed..

Yet now.. I'm being described as childish.. I'm being described as someone who have no brains.. Someone who isn't a good leader..

Why is it so hard to find the balancing point in life? To be the person that people can accept without much complaints..

I'm not trying to be THE person people want me to be.. But by ignoring them, I'm ignoring myself.. By denying them, I'm denying myself..

What actually is the problem with me? And when can I actually find this balancing point of mine?

i look upon the moon and stars at 7:24 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

The original image:



Step 1: Use the brush tool to turn the sky into grayscale.



Step 2: The same tool is used to color the slide with any color you like. For me, i colored it with green, blue, pink, yellow and red.




Step 3: Color the pant with brown. Make sure the brush is in "color" mode.



Step 4: Color the shirt

Step 5: Use brush tool to draw a sun on the right.



Step 6: Crop a girl image from the other picture and paste it into this image.



Step 7:



This is the final image.

i look upon the moon and stars at 11:45 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

Its 5am in the morning and I'm super tired. There are so many things on my mind and I don't even know what I'm thinking at the moment.

Something happened today made me think to myself. How does other people see me as a person? Put aside physical appearance which I know very well myself. What about my character?

Is it that once people have a preset view on yourself, or should I say, have expectations on you, you have to live up to their expectations? So what if you can't?

i feel that sometimes, I try to become what people think I should be.

And when you don't perform well enough, they think the problem lies in you.

Is it really that hard to just be myself?

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:48 AM
> 0 stars were shining bright even without the moon

I'm having really bad luck recently...

• I lost my phone (Heart broken)
• My guitar broke (Devastated)
  
• The guitar string went deep into my finger when i tried to remove it from the guitar. (Bled. Alot.)
• I lost a watch(Numb)
• I'm sick (Weeks? Months?)
  
• Misunderstandings with my housemate (Completely broke down)

And i thought people said it'll stop after 3 rounds of bad luck.

i look upon the moon and stars at 4:12 AM
> 1 stars were shining bright even without the moon